do I attract you? do I repulse you with my queasy smile? am I too dirty? am I too flirty? do I like what you like?

Jane's thousands of medicines for her worst ever earache, one of these things actually goes IN the ear. Aaaaaaah!!! Pity me.

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Okay, so last Thursday I started getting a cold and all weekend I was sick and then Monday I couldn't hear out of my left ear and then it kept getting worse and it was really bad and with Morocco tomorrow the Jurie-Joly's insisted on me going to see a doctor. Who prescribed me with a nasty ear infection and sent me to get antibiotics. I arrive at the pharmasicts who looks it all over and then hands me a bunch of boxs and gestures to one saying, wow it must be really bad, I rarely have to prescribe this, so I am a little depressed. Although, on the bright side I am now not the only one not taking thousands of pills at each meal (I live in a family where the mum is huge on homeopathy!!) and so now I am part of a team!!! YAH!!!!!

Anyway, I now feel quite fine and excited that I am done school early tomorrow and then I am going to Morocco!!! YES!!!! My mood is pretty good too, it's been in swing since Friday night and I go from happy to sad to angry to excited to nervous to scared all in a 20 second space, so it's a bit weird. But, I am pretty happy to head off to Morocco so that should be nice. Also, once I come home it's mums package (mmmm reeses pb cups and pieces and trashy magazines in english!!!) and two weeks of school and a soccer game and then home!!!! WOW, time sure flies. FIVE WEEKS TODAY!!!

A little note on school....I've really been stressing about Canadian math and today I found out that Kayla, the Canadian in my class, has already finished grade ten and grade eleven math, found them both easy and tutors in Canada and has offered to help me with a lot of my math when I get back from Morocco. So between Kayla and my dad who will help me the weekend I get back, I am feeling back on track!!! YAAAAAY, now if I could only avoid reading the bible....do not ask!!!!

So not really very much to say, just a little update before I head off to Morocco and am out of the loop for two and a half weeks. Much love to everyone!!!!! <3>

GORDES PICS ARE UP FOLKS!!! Last Monday I went to see Gordes, a cute little celebrity hotspot and gorgeous typical Provencal village (STUNNING!!!) and here are my scenery pics!!!

http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1871&l=284d1&id=504021617

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LYRICS GAME AGAIN ANYONE?

You might have to google it if the band is

not nearly as popular in Canada as it is in France.

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Painting the Pool Pics

So here is your second last (little towns tomorrow guys) pics update before May when I return with all my Morocco pics!!! Love you tons.
Te quiero Mucho, mille grazie Ingrid MY LOVE <3

http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1792&l=0a523&id=504021617

Quiz & Pictures

Okay, so I copied Emma because I am running out of ideas and here is my quiz:

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=070407024352-234588&

HERE ARE ALL THE PHOTOS:

Visiting the village pictures
http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1564&l=4e2e5&id=504021617

Train Station Pictures
http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1651&l=a5538&id=504021617

Scouts de France Pictures
http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1652&l=91e52&id=504021617

Random School Pictures
http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1654&l=e5ff8&id=504021617

Random Pictures
http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1655&l=5d5c3&id=504021617

School Music Performance Pictures
http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1656&l=bce21&id=504021617

Visit With Friends In Le Thor Pictures
http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1667&l=2fce6&id=504021617

Lunchtime At School Pictures
http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=1712&l=fea82&id=504021617

Remember if the link doesn't work then copy and paste into your browser!

So, today is say something nice about someone with whom you might not actually like as much as you thought you did. Do you follow? This, is my made up day because today I figured out where Aurore is worth her weight in gold and how exactly to............"play" her? Lol, here we go.
Today I spent a wonderful day exploring Avignon (by shopping down all the side routes) with Danica, Kayla, Ceilidh and Liora, our newest recruit in grade nine at the nearby collège who is having an absolute shit exchange and had never before eaten a crèpe (until I made her!!). I bought a nice bag, a present for Ingrid, a pair of jeans (skinny jeans, god I can't believe I caved to that trend, but they were so niceeeeeee and they go perfectly with the flats I bought a month ago!!) and something else which escapes me at just this moment.... I was feeling all high (I had fun on the train coming home alone, very nice long French countryside ride) and mighty - NOTHING CAN TOUCH ME NOW - and I get home and everyone bombards me and wants to know exactly what I bought -Jane is a sucker for attention- and so of course I told them. Now, for those of you who don't know, I really saw France as a time to change (appearance, attitude) to be the person I want to be (confused yet?) and a three month away where people don't see you daily is much easier than going in Monday morning a new girl. So, where most people would criticize me for the skinny jeans and say it wasn't "me" and that it wasn't a good purchase, what was becoming of the Jane they knew, etc. etc. Aurore proved how she is amazing. Without saying, Jane you don't usually wear that, she said, very nicely. Jane it looks good. And then she approved all of my purchaces and was a cheery, wonderful Aurore all evening.
It seems that to get the best out of Aurore you must chose the ideal moments to approach and never never force, it seems that I am learning and life is picking up. Now, I had a lot of fun at soccer, I am getting better better better and I am happppppppppppy!!!!
<333 JANE

I don't wanna be anything other than what I've been trying to be baby

Knock yourselves out for the lyrics. You might have to google them, but for those who know Gavin DeGraw, I guess your search will be a little easier!!!
So, today was amazing, a wonderful cheery day, honestly going to school in France and being with my French friends is like candy!!!!! I hung out with Flo (Florian), Charlotte, Jeremie, Jeremie, Dannica, Kayla, Ceildih, Jamie and a bunch of guys that we played basketball with (today again!!). And sadly all the cute and/or hot guys have girlfriends. Tragedy!!! Well, anyway, I had fun eating and hanging out with them and just going crazy and enjoying a relatively easy cheery day. I am clinging to it even after Aurore's annoying "getting mad a jane rant" today. So, I am happy, I am making more friends of my own, hanging out with peopel in my class and being involved and it's really getting me out of any potential dark places which is nice. Now you must excuse me because I have an incredibly boring (but I really should be interested) book called No Logo by Naomi Klein that I have to finish for media class which is insanely long and crappy and filled with big words that ma tete francaise is having trouble dealing with!! So, I will go now and read my stupid book and do my troublesome math homework before I eat dinner and then I'll read after dinner until they all go to sleep and then put up my photo albums (some) and then watch an episode or two of "One Tree Hill" to get me into a nice relaxed place to give me a good sleep, I START A NINE TOMORROW!!! Hip hip hoorray for reasonable hours!! Also, Dannica said she would hang out with me tomorrow so tomorrow (a light course day) should be wonderfulllllllllll.

love you all♥♥

wow, three blogs in less than 24h, havent done that in awhile!!!

So, I really am an emotional roller coaster considering I am feeling extremely happy and cheery only hours after crying and feeling sick. The advil, oh thank god for that, kicked in recently and I finished my math and history which was very uplifting and then I listened to music, watched Prison Break with Aurore and thought about the week ahead of me, starting tomorrow, which made me incredibly cheerful!!! Now, I am in a brilliant mood (I honestly don't know how they come and go as they do) and looking forward to dinner, some more homework and then once everyone goes to sleep, watching some English Prison Break on my own for an hour before crawling into my own bed. Being in my newly cheery mood today allowed me to jump up and down and almost scream, holy crap it's APRILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL, which...it really is!!!
Back to crappy mood...Aurore caught me crying on msn with mum earlier today and told her mother (which put into perspective for her my generally disinterested, quiet, agreeable moodt his morning) and caused her to give me a big hug and say it's hard and then have a long talk with me which started with me missing my family, went on to Morocco and then transgressed to how quickly this whole exchange is going to go once I start school this week (this weekend was my last "nothing" weekend) and then made it's way (honestly don't know how) to how Canadian schools tend to be more hardworking than French schools and how the French system is said to be better but really is worse and then how maybe the new President will change that but Sylvie really doubts it. All in all the last couple of hours have been immensely cheering and next week is busy. For example:
I have school Monday to Friday but Thursday I am going to the market to buy a lovely table cloth for my mother and peut-etre Anne, si elle est envie, and then Saturday we're painting the base coat for the pool (yes we're painting the pool), I have a soccer game, we're visiting Gordes and another small town and in the evening Sarah (big sis from Paris) arrives for Easter. Sunday we get to paint designs and pictures all over the pool and we are doing the whole "hide eggs" thing and celebrating Easter and I think maybe going to Nice, but I'm not sure. Also, we shall be going to the market Sunday morning. (I think) Then on Monday we have it off but I am not sure what we're doing but if it's nothing (although I doubt that) I shall probably dive into another chunk of school work to keep getting that done with. Then Tuesday to Friday we have school and Friday night we drive overnight to Morocco and spend the next two weeks there (it's such an elaborate trip, it takes us all over, through the desert and to every freaking corner of Morocco, very cool) and return on May 1st, which of course will make me scream with delight because...duh, it's May and it is the return month. So quite honestly, I feel like the "home stretch" starts tomorrow because of all the reasons above and although I know that it will still be hard with boring bits and fights with Aurore and Morocco can be really hard, it'll be easier because 1. Morocco is a new country and that will be lots of fun and 2. It's the home stretch, just knowing that is enough to keep me going.

So, much love to you all from a cheerier, happier Jane.
I promise that pictures and videos will be put up over the course of this week, I mean, I really do have to do it before I go to Morocco and become bombarded with more pictures and videos right??? Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3

my old friend the blues =(

Today is shit, excuse me, today is crap.
I am crying, Aurore is being grumpy and obnoxious to boot, I feel sick and cold and I need to do some Canadian homework but I can't seem to make myself do the work. I need to be on Monday. I need to be at school, working, speaking, interacting. I need to be at Thursday so I can say I am at the halfway point and it's all uphill from there. I can't breath, I can't eat, I can't work. I think it's just fatigue, but I am feeling the strain of Canadina homework, other peoples relationships and the extra kilos that come with France. I can't walk because I live beside a highway type road and just sitting still and listening to my iPod doesn't do it anymore. I cannot even see the silver lining today, it's April Fools Day, it's the last full month, it's almost halfway and it's only 20 school days more and all I see is me crying and being tired and sick and wanting to dissolve into a comfortable bed, with a comfortable pillow, with a loud, blowing fan and some new, comforting music. I will do this and I will make it through this and tomorrow will be good and I will be happy and I will feel better, but right now, just now, I am revisiting how I felt when I first arrived, a feeling I thought I wouldn't have to revisit until my next voyage away from home and I guess it just goes to show that no matter what, it can always come back and you shouldn't write it off. So, I shall blog and post pictures and be cheery and happy and not depressing tomorrow when I can muster the strength. Now I am going to go lie in my bed and think about cheerful things and Canada and what there is to look forward to.
My love and happy April Fool's Day,
Sick*Jane