Hating moments. Feeling the one month strain.

So the last week has been absolutely great but it has been filled with little moments of anger, stress, sandness, etc. and it's been slowly mounting up and last night I was enjoying some downtime and just getting myself to feel better when Aurore, who was waching tv, said Jane can you set the table please? And I did but I was really mad because I've done it everyday this week without being asked and I need a minute to just veg and zone out to recuperate and she just doesn't seem to see what most people can see sometimes. Long story short I started to cry because I felt like shit (after I set the table) and Aurore got so worried then and was like Jane don't cry please don't cry and then she did something stupid (which I can't remember at all) and I started laughing and crying and it was a sight to see. I honestly feel the pressure mounting as I hit today, the one month mark and it takes longer and longer now to bring myself a happy place and my mood has been out of control, happy one minute and sad or angry the next. So, I am in retarded English level one on the computer and I am dying of computer boredom!!!! I am also feeling like I want the package that my mom sent me to come because here Emma is talking about a second package and the first one for me, that hasn't even arrived, is leaving me in tears (just last night) and making me all stressed out. Which is not good because the whole purpose of the package is to make me feel better and to give me a little piece of my home. And so I shall leave you know and go and enjoy my recess before I relearn all about Hitler (when she says it it sounds like éclair, yumm!!!) and World War Two in History class before going home and praying to god that the package has arrived. 29/30 days until Morocco (give or take!!) and 55 days until Canada!! I promise it's not me counting, its the Canadian who is sitting next to me.

A feeling blah Jane. <333